thank you guys.

thank you guys for always being there.
thank you God, for placing them there.

Today is the 30th of dec, just one more day to the end of 08. Looking at my planner and calendar, it made me realised that I have survived an eventful year with a blast.

2008-
An eventful year, a year God showed me how He works, through pple He placed around me. Because I know very well, without them, without the strength He gave me, everything, not even the least of them can be done.

Thank You Jesus, for crosslink, for camp comm, for tq pple, for allowing me to pass my driving test this year, for s43 pple((: that are always being in[sane]ly crazy, for s11 pple for playing pool in the [sport]y-est manner, for [the three s13] pple thank you for conquering MOUNT bukit timah w me(: and mahjonging through the night at the messy-est room ever :/, for ex-mg pple thank you guys for still being so contactable whenever you're back in s'pore(: and for all the un-glam BUT awesome times spent, for ex-lvl 6s thank you for all the fabulous times spent and yes I am stepping down from organising class outings HAHA, for sow pple thank you guys for being such an amazing fun bunch, for my friends and family that are always loving and supportive of me,accepting me for who I am. Last but definitely not the least, thank You Jesus for bringing my brother to come to know of You, and I continue to pray for his walk with You.(:

Thank God for every little thing in my life. Thank You for drawing me close to You. Thank You for these people that has been such a blessing in my life.

bedtime story.

bedtime story-

loves bugsy.

reminds me of you

I really love the raining gum-ball scene. How I wished it happened to me-((: whee.
It scares me as the days are passing so quickly.

We have reached the 29th of dec. Just two days to 2009. A blank new page, a brand new start.

A time to come out with a brand new new year resolution. To mean it, and do it. To have a brand new beginning, to forget things that I need to. To me, it is tough. I am afraid that I can't, I am afraid that I can't do this anymore. It has been so long, that you have became a habit in my life. And to remove it, I need more than simply time, but courage and wilpower-which is seriously lacking. I am sorry for always saying how busy I am, but the true reason is I don't know what to do anymore. I dont even know wha t I want anymore. Things left unsaid, I feel are better left that way.

That bright and sunny day, was seriously spoilt. I couldnt function after receiving that call. I didnt know what to do and my whole day was just wasted, not wanting to do anything. My brain was just all about you. Seriously, its time, to bid goodbye to this. I just pray.

It is time to move on.

super duper christmas(:

Christmas bells are ringing, and children voices singing
To welcome in the birth of our king
Its a celebration for all of God's creation
So come along and help us to sing.

Jesus is the reason, we celebrate the season
Jesus is the birth of our king
And christmas isn't christmas, without the love of Jesus
He is the reason that we sing.

So have a
Super duper christmas with Jesus this year
Super duper christmas spending good cheer
when you are down, your frown would soon disappear
So have a super duper christmas with Jesus this year.

Christmas time is caring and christmas time is sharing
Tell the world that christmas is here
Won't you please remember, that after this december
To share His love each day of the year

Jesus is the reason, we celebrate the season
Jesus is the birth of our king
And christmas isn't christmas, without the love of Jesus
He is the reason that we sing.

So have a
Super duper christmas with Jesus this year
Super duper christmas spending good cheer
when you are down, your frown would soon disappear
So have a super duper christmas with Jesus this year.

I pray that everyone will have a superduper christmas this year((:

vit z deficiency

I am glad to say, I have survived 17days of december and still counting. I am halfway there, I really need to do this, and I want to do all these well. But I know that everything that is done, is definitely beyond my own capability. Without You, I am worthless, and of nothing. Because You allowed all these to be done, through me, by Your strength that You have given me.

12dec- 16 dec: faith (in)deed. Thank God for allowing this camp to run through smoothly, thank God for allowing us to talk to pple that we do not usually talk to, to step out of our comfort zone, to serve and for everything that we've gained through this camp, faith (in)deed. Thank You for allowing all the food sources to delivered on time, that my nightmare remained unrealised. Thank You for allowing me the strength to continue serving You throughout the camp and allowing my body to not succumb to being sick.(: Thank God for every little thing that You have made possible, and being with us through the camp! I must say I have learnt much and gained much from this camp. Through the workshops, burn out was really apt and indeed it taught me that sufficient rest is important to carry on walking this walk well. The gender workshop was also pretty good, it shows us that even as we face much challenges in everyday life, we need to respond in a manner to glorify God and to pray and seek Him first; something that sometimes we do last, as we often try to solve it by our means first. I just want to say that through this camp has been a splendid chance to work with fabulous people, as well as to get to know my comm members a little better.

Cheerios to daniel, for being a strict but yet fabulous camp commandant; to andre, for being an entertaining and encouraging deputy camp commandant; to jiehui, for being a responsible secretary that sends out minutes after every meeting; to esther, my OH-SO-FANTASTIC treasurer and deputy welfare ic that collects food with me((: helping me out and yes, the only other girl in the comm, thank God for placing you in my life, and thank God for this camp that I could know you better again! to sunny, for being an atas logistic personel, guarding the keys and stuff; to andrew, thank you for being such an ATAS cordial man even though your hygiene level is around grade C:/ but nevertheless the cordial you made were seriously nice! and thanks for all the help rendered during the camp and seriously you're really nice to make fun off, because you never get angry, lol; to sherman, the games really rock and thank you for being such a fabulous angel because I seriously thought if you were my angel, my cup would probably end up in the bin.:x Anyhow, thank you guys for making this camp so fabulous and working alongside each other has been an awesome experience. Even though we started planning about a year ago, but all these just felt so recent. And I really will miss the times spent, from talking nonsense to serious plannings. Thank God for placing you guys in my life.(:

Yes and as what I said to some of them, I have reached a point of no return. My brain is malfunctioning to the state that unless I write down a task list, I'll most probably forget what happened or what to do. A state of mind that I seriously need sleep. Why can't they just manufacture vit z in pills. Oh wells.

hectic

Yes, exams are over. But let me tell you, post-exam activities are far more tiring(physically) compared to exams-days. Oh wells, however I rather be kept in this busyness than having exams anytime.(: Alrights, now my whole room is filled with post-its, my best friend because I'm how forgetful. And because this december is insanely hectic, I better post them up on my board to remind myself. I am really scared that I won't do a good job out of my delegated tasks. I just hope that everything will be fine. I am afraid that I'll just screw up. But I know everything I do, all that I am, all that I have, I just have to submit them to You. Because ultimately, everything bit of me, all that I can do, is through Him.

Not by my might, but Yours.
Not by my strength, but Yours.
Not by my will, but Yours.

Alrights, shall give a brief recap of what I've been doing.
5dec- went out w s11 pple((: ate at nihon mura(lunch) and cafecartel(dinner), unfortunately I can't eat a thing except chawanmushi because of braces tightening. played CRAZY pool, seriously insane, each one of us had a ball number, guys have two or three each. And when your number gets put into the hole, for guys its 20push-ups each, and for girls its running around the arcade once. Its seriously a get-fit pool game.Hurr, where all the guys did over 200push-ups each and kith owing more than 120push ups.:x After dinner, we went to watch Bolt. It was pretty awesome I must say.((: Bolt is super dog afterall.

6dec- had crosslink comm meeting in the morning. ironed out CCIS event and carolling event stuff, which was good. But we really got to plan for next years events soon.:x put on your thinking cap! recce-ed food sources and am finally done! got my next sem's core modules notes from shaun, oh man they are thick thick thick. I pray I'll survive them.-.- After everything, went for kffc event at east coast and hmm, had bbq, once again lijun stares at the food.):

7dec- had 5dbc comm meeting, it was pretty long but at least many stuff was done and UP! I just pray for all the events that are coming up this dec- namely youth camp, 5dbc, CCIS, carolling.((:

alrights time to go have dinner with fab,ivin, samuel. And followed by having mahjong/ stayover at my place later w ph,lw,nic and hs.((: lovelovelove.

welcome to hectic insane december

finally.

I can finally say, its over!(: I'm done with exams and halfway through being a year two. This semester seriously just flew by. From the prep camp of SOW, to actual SOW, till start of the semester, to now, end of semester1, everything seemed so recent, and in the midst of all the crazy times spent, time just vrooom by. I must say I utterly enjoyed this semester, core subjects were fun, inorganic, principles and applications of spectroscopy are love. Thank God that yet another semester has gone by and I have survived.(:

I can't wait for dimsum buffet tmr! Met linwan for post-exam day 1 OUT!((: Walked around/shopping at citylink and all. I miss town, exams just deprive you so much. Haha. And that stupid girl forced me to watch quarantine with her. x_x Both of us almost died halfway through the movie, till I found out the reason why they behaved in such a manner, I started watching the movie and actually found some parts really hilarious. Hurr, and linwan was like- you're psycho. Lol but seriously some parts were pretty funny.:x Yes, and I was so brave and out of my mind to watch a horror movie w her. It was rather stressful watching it I must say.

Alrights that's all for now. Time to sleep and continue my post exams program tmr!((:

heng: all the best for your last paper tmr!((: jiayous and prepare a hungry stomach for dimsum buffet tmr!((:

nic: we shall make it up for having a more fab taiwan trip next year OKAY!((: and meanwhile sentosa as a replacement for tanning!! wee.

lulu: happy working!((: meet up soon okay and haha till 5th dec for your PINK ic to come back.lol

24hr.

In exactly 24 hours time, it will be the start of my happy holidays. I seriously can't wait for this period of time to quickly zoom by. So, I shall try by blinking more frequently. Because people say time flies at the blink of an eye. haha. okay, I have less that 24hrs to mug. I'm more or less done with this module, but I seriously lack practice. And doing the past year papers are the least I can do for now. Thank goodness for my hardworking chem friends that always checks answers with me((:, going through questions that I have problems with.

Just a little bit longer.

I think its really weird. In the midst of exams, I feel more relaxed because people won't come and ask you to do stuff and like you'll just stay at home and nuah in the midst of mugging. But after exams, you have a whole line-up of programs. What an irony. lol but yes, I rather exams are over and done with soon.

sneak preview of my post-exams schedule:

2dec-going out shopping and all w linwan!(:

3dec-going DIMSUM buffet w heng,nic,linwan

4dec-s11(nuspple) kboxing/gathering AND braces tightening:/

5dec-ex-lvl6s outing!!

6dec-recce w esther for 5dbc and youth camp food, kffc event((:

I can't wait.

s p a c e

splendidspace

spectacularscene

yes.physics of the universe-makes you go insane about -space.

my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,your dreams stay big, your worries stay small, you'll never need to carry more than you can hold. And while you're out there getting where you're getting to. I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too. Yea, this, is my wish.

my wish-Rascal Flatts.

w e e k .

just one more week and goodbye sem 1. Time really flieso_o well I cant say that I cant wait for this week to be over because then I'll be free of exams. Yes, I can't wait for my dimsum buffet HENG!((:

Today's paper was pretty ok I guess. forty MCQs, two structured questions, open book. The index was my best friend in that two hours. And till now my head is still painful from the flipping and reading/treasure hunt of words and concepts of E-commerce. HEADACHE)): Oh wells, goodbye MR EC and MS MC. I'm just not an IT-savvy enough person to begin with. But oh well, at least there was ample time to go through all the questions.

In two days time, it'll mark the most challenging day of examination week. My core module's exam in the morning followed by genes' exams in the afternoon. OH save me, please. I need more stamina to endure two papers back to back. *faints.

But oh wells, that's just part and parcel of life. On the lighter note, when I'm so -.- of studying I watch this and seriously it makes you happy and hungry, and feel that YES I CAN COOK someday. go take a look here -http://food.yahoo.com/everyday/

Alrighty, I shall go get some vitamin zz to continue with this war. HAHA tw o do wn.((: th ree mo re to go. we can do this nus kids!(: jiayous!!

Be still and know I am God

-Psalm 46:10

I pray that You'll continue to bless and give us rest. Even in the very midst of everything, may You enable us to find Your perfect peace. I pray that You'll provide her with strength and joy that comes from You, in every new day.

o ne d own.

one down. four to go:/ Time really flies, yet another sem will be over soon. HMM. hopefully hopefully I will survive this, and above all, do well. Yes, I know results are not everything. And indeed its been a pleasant learning journey. Especially this sem, having the same lab partner for ALL three mod(: wee awesome. Thank God for letting me have such a fabulous lab partner that just made pracs more bearable and fun.

Do you believe that I am able to do this? (Matt 9:28)

Nothing is too hard for Jesus

No man can work like Him

Thank You for everything. Thank You for allowing me to commit and surrender all into Your hands. I will do my best, but God will do the rest.

Faith (in)deed.

Alrights, today's paper was pretty okay I guess. It was tough, but nevertheless I was able to complete most of the qns. Except one, making me choose four out of five, makes me sigh. I prolly took some time deciding which I feel I could have done better if I didnt keep procrastinating on which qns to do. SIGH. Luckilly, I managed to pen down most of my answers till AML said stop writing. I pray that I would have better time management in future papers. But neverthess, many werent able to complete the paper:x and my first three qns were still really pretty do-able for me.(: Alrights goodbye frank condon, its been great getting to know more about you this sem. haha.

Finally watched madagascar.((: i love melman. david schwimmer♥ Though the first one was a blast, the second was pretty awesome still! HAHA with random shark jumping around and eventually sacrificing itself to the volcano "god" haha. fabulous.

And to reward myself! I bought myself -- jonas brothers cd. weee. a little bit longer. joejonas equals ♥ HAHA. but nick jonas is cutecute LOL. alrights shall get back to mugging soooon.

pridepridepride. maybe that's why we havent talked for quite a while. perhapsperhaps. I should take the next step. But thank you, for taking the initiative, everytime. Because only then I'll start maintaining this. Again. I dont know how to go along anymore. I am just tired. Because most of my time now is spent, on the books, with the books, trying to understand the books. OH wells. perhaps, after exams, I'll iron things out, within myself.

Hmm. I'm pretty glad that studying has been pretty(: though its like -.- HUMPH cos everyday my routine is the same. But thank God, my core modules are pretty okay for me, and they are my fav part of chemistry. Which implies I'm so dead with my org,anac and phys chem next sem. Because this sem is PRETTY fun with my spectro and apl and inorg has been good to me. I'm pretty worried instead for my electives. Just because they are so full of contents and I have to memorise and remember IT and GEnes.:X Heng I'm so scared I'll fail my GENES): praypraypray.

ALRIGHTS, time to get back w my hot date--BOOKS.LOL

RAWR MS HENG: thanks for "boasting" on being MADAGASCAR-ED. BAH.>.<>

5dbc.

5dbcoriginally came from -- the 12days of christmas idea.

The first day of Christmas, my true love sent to me...

But HEY since the event was 20thdec, 5 days before Christmas,at 1900hrs. POOF*

5 days before Christmas, my true love gave to me...

Today crys and band did a pretty wow((: job on publicity for the event and seriously, I'm already in the Christmas-eee mood already. I can't believe it like its only barely mid nov.HUMPHH.exams are not even here/OVER.-.- but HEY Christmas is my fav season.The song is still stuck in my head-- All I want for Christmas is You.

I don't want a lot for Christmas

There's just one thing I need

I don't care about the presents

Underneath the Christmas tree

I just want you for my own

More than you could ever know

Make my wish come true

All I want for Christmas is you.

link

HENG: you are so dead! uncle mike told me what you msged him-.- then he thought I msg wrong person. Nownownow. you're so dead!! rawr.

lulu: as I mentioned, gattaca is super old movie, so prolly watch it online or something(: BUT its pretty good so yupp.((: HIGHly recommended.

nic: jiayous for your exams!((: i wanna watch MADAGASCAR!!

chiam: i'm jealous of your madagascar toy.nyeh.O:

burn e

burn-e. pretty hilarious if you watched wall-e already.(: lol watched it from liwei's blog((:

time flies. its already the end of sem 1 year 2.Just a week's time to the start of exams and 17days to the end of my papers. I certainly wish I would utilise time well, not just for now, mugging and prep for papers but also for my time during the holidays.

A brief overview of what I'll be doing in dec seems hectic and insane. The last phase of church camp planning and church camp itself.[I pray for that You will keep this event in Your hands] I am just really worried that I'll screw up and O_O later campers got no food to eat:/ ohmytian nightmares. I pray that the youths will be able to learn more about You, that it is faith (in)deed.((: We need to work out this faith, no matter how hard this walk is, we need to persevere on. Because You called us, help us live out our faith today. thank you mingdao for writing our campsong(recording and emailing it over to S'pore) liveyourfaith.(: Its really meaningful and captivates the camp theme. James 2:18- "But someone will say, You have faith; I have deeds." Show me Your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do."

kffc's event on 6-7dec. 5dbc on 20dec. CCIS on 21-23dec. carolling on 25dec. I pray that You'll just enable us to have the passion and courage to tell of Your wonders and love to pple around us. I pray that You'll oversee every single detail in planning, I pray that you'll watch over these events. I pray that these events will fall into place, in Your way, by Your grace.I pray.

I pray that I'll have time for myself, think of things I need to begin thinking about, life, life that You want me to lead. I seriously do not know what the future holds, but I pray that in everything I do, every decision I make, not by my will but Yours. I pray that I'll be conscientious and putting aside more time for you. Because, it seems that these hectic lives we lead, are simply draining and drawing me further from you. Draw me closer, and let me walk the talk.

in spir ation al

"Making the simple complicated is commonplace;

making the complicated simple, awesomely simple,

that's creative"

Charles Mingus-

):

boohoo. I'm sick, like suddenly yesterday. Went to see the doctor this morning, was given a jab and a zillion other pills/tablets to go along. SIGH. But I still had to drag myself to school because of some stupid AML test. HAIX. MCs are useless when you reach UNI level.):

I really hope my throat will stop hurting. like now. Like can you believe, I cant talk at all cos its just too painful to do so. Rawr. I can't swallow pills and I have so many of them to eat.): kill me please.

OHOH. I wanna watch madagascar! O_O

HAHA. my fav madagascar character: MELMAN.>.<

g a t t a c a

★gattaca-simply brilliant, awesome. It just makes me wonder why we are always wanting the best. Sometimes flaws are good, at least we know they are real. Though it does not contribute to a good enough excuse to be imperfect or flawed, but in striving for perfection to not be so caught up with it.

In case you don't realise, like the un-observant girl that sits next to me during genes lecture, GATTACA is spelt with ATCG[adenine, thymine, cytosine and guanine] A show I would recommend you to watch, given the time.(:


It simply makes your mind wonder, given millions and zillions of strands of genetic information that exists in our body, and given the fact that every single genetic material is made just in perfection just as we exist. There cannot be any chance but a creator, none other than God.

believe.

"I ask of you what has been asked of Americans throughout our history. I ask you to believe, not just in my ability to bring about change, but in yours."

kit-kat.

take a break take a kit-kat.
lol. I found my new love.

the jonas brothers.

joe jonas.♥

talent. awesome. love. alrights enough fan-girling. I cant wait to get my hands on their album(:

procrastinate

procrastinate -to defer action; delay. its part of me, sigh. and I hate it.

stayed at home the entire day, doing my lab report and stuff. Two last lab reports to the end of this semester.twomore-.-.this just shows how close we are to the end. Just three more weeks to the start of my exams.:x faints*

made yummy jelly today because I was so sick of lab-reporting.jellojelly(: OHOH and budgetairline is having some discounted rates, the only bad thing is that we have to book it my nov. sigh. PPLE pls reply my email(: I really hope that this taiwantrip09 will actually materialise.HAHA I actually poached nicole and tzehoe to help me with the planning.((: though that tzehoe is haix BUT I've got nicole!(: haha and she actually planned and booked the bintan trip already.(: but we need more pple, the more the merrier! and it'll also be more economical if more pple go.>.<

I need to study. I need to get down to studying. I need my brain cells to function properly. I need discipline. I need to stop procrastinating.-.-

to lulu: eh you and your friends want to come bintan too? its from 21-23dec(:
and OH that time you ask, its a song and below is a link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQzMiHY79b8

work.

I suddenly realise that time is running out. Its already week eleven, lets simply say week thirteen is the last week before the end of this semester. Following it would be a week for study break and poof* to exams. This semester simply just flew by, at the wink of an eye. I am dead. There's so much to do, so little time. There's so much on my desk, but so much inertia. I need to work my ass offit is time.

meeting linwan to study tomorrow, hopefully it'll be a fruitful mugging session(:

I pray that time will stop, like now.
I pray that we will all have enough stamina to finish this.
Amen.

to You.

Here I am, forever in Your mighty Hand

Living in Your promise

Written on my heart

I am Yours, surrenderred wholly to You

You set me in Your family

Calling me Your own

Now I

I belong to You

All I need

Your Spirit, Your word, Your truth

Hear my cry

My deep desire to know You more

In Your name, I will lift my hands

To the King

This anthem of praise I'll bring

Heaven knows

I long to love You

With all I am

I belong to You.

Even as the going gets tough, the tough gets going. No matter how difficult life's going to be, we still have to carry on. Jesus never said it was going to be easy, He only said you'll never walk alone. Just like footprints, He will always be there, through it all. Taking up the cross will never be easy. Just like loving your friends, your neighbours, your enemies; we love because He first loved us. Just as trials that come your way are meant to mould you and make you grow in Him. Just as His thoughts and ways are higher than ours, it is the beauty of His ever-perfect plan. Everything is made perfect in His time. That even how tough this walk in Him seems to be, I pray that you'll continue to press on. This is my prayer today.

"I do not ask that He must prove
His word is true to me,
And that before I can believe
He first must let me see.
It is enough for me to know
It's true because He says it's so;
On His unchanging Word I'll stand
And trust till I can understand."
-E.M. Winter

[lab-report-ing]

I'm finally DONE with my [labreports] today. Had two experiments to do and had to hand in the subsequent reports on the SAME day:/ luckilly the two lab reports are pretty simple and short to do((: and thanks to uncle mike that brought his laptop for me, I was able to finish it so fast and so furious-ly.

I am really really tired. and my "neighbour" drove today, but I can't get my free ride today because me and my friends have a date with adrianlee later for lecture till 8pm): pooof* goes my free ride home. sigh I was really tempted to "pon" adrianlee's lecture at six. but no. Its my core and I must stop "pon"ing lectures.esp genes[guilty-ness]

and it was so amazing, adrianlee actually uploaded his notes before midnight yesterday. applause for him pls.:/ its the first time in the whole of this sem.

alrighty I shall hand in my labreport that is due at five o'clock now(:

weee.tmr's my free day again(((((: simply awesome.

encounter

brief summary of my weekend:

saturday: shopping with celeste with a million food breaks [tau-hway etc] followed by [check]mate party(:

sunday: went for service with my bro followed by having yummyyummy lunch with my bro at MOF:) free-treat yay! went to chiam's house to bake tiramisu was cam-whoring the whole time while doing the photoshoot for nic. adding on to my album of unglam photos. had dinner with des, fab and nic at tampines ikea. sigh I would love to have sweddish meatballs, but afraid that it'll be too hard to swallow, poached salmon in replacement(:.had a superbly fun time camwhoring on KPE(70km/h-slowest speed you can catch FAB on the expressway):x then we went to drive around on des' dad's van.[manualcar=puke]. oh yes tampines has alot of XQ(xiaoqiangs) like eew. des and I were like forced to play some horror game online with fab, and it was then I realised that three of us have a common trait- cowardness:X we were all covering our eyes and all. It was like OH-MY-TIAN-ness. and from the post earlier, I was stranded at des' house till like 1am:/

monday: was supposed to have campcomm meeting at 10am, but I woke up at 9:45am.total GG. I was like -.- dies. But managed to rush down to PS at 1030am. pheew. At least I wasnt like eugene-theblur, he actually thought the meeting was held in the evening CAN:/ win. After the meeting went for lunch at KFC, yay my favourite staple food-mashpotatoes. lovelove<33.

was blog-hopping and I reallyreally love reading my friends' blog(:

http://willywei.com/2008/10/22/the-government-wants-me-back/

this is super hilarious. take a look at the posters.:X

Thank God for allowing me to survive this. I finally finished the handwritten report and am preparing for tomorrow's lab because I have to hand it in like on the day itself:/

this is so random.but I was just listening to encounter_one's cd. The songs, the message, just simply awesome.

You laid aside your majesty

Gave up everything for me

Suffered at the hands of those You have created

You took all my guilt and shame when You died and rose again

Now today You reign in heaven and earth, exalted.

I really want to worship you my Lord

You have won my heart and I am yours

Forever and ever

I will love You

You are the only one who died for me

Gave your life to set me free

So I lift my voice to You in adoration.

dessy-mon's house

happy20th + 1day old DESSY-mon(((:

lol now I'm with des and fab in des' house:/ sigh I'm superduper tired BUT FAB dont want to go home yet!): sigh. iwanttogohome!!rawr.

went for a drive when fab drove des' dad's van!rawr. a manual car:/ the scariest ride ever. I felt giddy and wanted to puke.HAHA but okay lah the ride got better towards the end.((:
sigh did so many insane stuff. shall post photos up real soon!!

yays. anyhow I'm awaiting to go home soooon. FAB I want to go home please!O: yay free ride again((: wee.

today's such a long day again. baked in chiam's house-[tiramisu] supersupersuper yummmy((: haha THANKYOUYOU chiam and family for the hospitality and everything. despite being unwell and stuff you guys still played as a reallyreally good host(((: lovelovelove

alrighty I shall not hog the comp. sigh.
I feel- Iwannagohome-.-

decided.

HAPPY 21st AK!!(:
yewtee is reallyreallyreally far:/ thanks for softsoft yummyyummy food((: i love the tofu,fish and choc fondue(: i have just taken the MOST number of un-glammed shots in crys' camera today[with braces])):

I just realised that I have at least one friend's bday everyday from 24thOCT-31stOCT:x I am broken beyond redemption. sigh had shopping day out with HENG today. our shopping stamina has dropped): it must be school,stress and what nots.SIGH. bought a top and ate rocher tauhuay again((:

didnt manage to go for dessymon's surprise/gathering later at night. cos yewtee is so far, and today has been a long day. sorry, but I'm sure you had fun.LOL. stupid fab dont scold me okay! i'm your mudder! cannot no big no small LOL>.<

to des,ky: HAPPY20thBIRTHDAY((: welcome to the we're secretly 18+2 club!!haha.

i have decided to let go and let God.i have decided not to pursue this.i have decided to crumble and die.dying daily, for Jesus.
i have decided to forget you.i am just not good enough. never.
i dunno why i'm feeling this way. i feel i've just ran into a dead end.i need to get through this. i must, i need to.
i'm sorry. i cannot do this. i am a coward.i am not good enough. and i dunno how to trust you.
i'm sorry. i'm emo.)):
i am tired; masked.i need a break. soon. i want to run. away from this.

"free"ride(:

had lessons from 8-8 today, yet again. lol but yay my "neighbour" drove today and ended project meeting in the evening too!((: wee FREE RIDE home!! had porridge + tauhuay for dinner at oldairport road!! yummyyummyyummy!!

THANK YOU FOR THE "free" RIDE TODAY JEREMY TAN!((:
had I knew that you live so uber close to me when we were working in SH, I bet you'll always get "free" rides from me too HAHA!
stop lying to me about the $17.30 taxi fare! LOL and I"M NOT the LAZY-est girl alive!:x
my braces pal "neighbour" thank you again!LOL first time sitting in a van:/ super HIGH and pretty scary.:x

rawr. I am going to drown in assignments
(i) hand written labreport (cm2111)
(ii) full labreport (cm2101)
(iii) IT presentation
(iv) 2101 test:/ which is dunno when HAIX when will adrian lee stop "smoking" us in lectures.

I have I have I have to complete at least (i) today:/ so lets pray I can do this. can't wait for tmr! our super long BOOKED date to shopshopshop!((: HENG I miss shopping with you! and stop zzzing in GENES lect; you make me wanna zz too:/

haix andrewkoh's bday is tmr:/ theme: [check]mate. I dont have clothes for the theme:x and why do you have to stay so far?! UT[yewtee] is uber far and ulu>.<

dessymon's bday surprize is tmr:/ and I cant go. haix. hopefully I can join you guys later at night. OR nvm I'll see nic and chiam during baking session on sunday((: wee. I cant wait!! but speaking of that, I dont have the recipe and haven't bought the ingredients yet:x

alrighty. i shall go and embark on my arduous labreporting soon):
wish me luck

i think i'm giving up.
i dunno how to talk to you anymore.
this is not working.
this is not how i want it to be.
glibberish.glibberish.glibberish.

♥braces

bracesbracesbraces:/

thank you chiam for coming w me to PUT on these braces. unlike ms PSK(pangsehkiah).HAHA LOL:X i was whining after eating OH-SOMARVELLOUS XLB and ramen at imperial treasures all the way to the dental place. ahh. i was scared but excited. BUT reallyreally quite scared, to the point I told chiam, I'm going to lock myself in the toilet and NOT go for dental. and chiam was like, then I'll break open the toilet door and PULL you in for dental.-.- LOL ♥chiam. i would have died if I went alone. haix like what ms PSK say-lijunisscaredycat

STATUS UPDATE: I HAVE ORANGE BRACES.:/ which is increasingly getting painfullll by the minute. and I look like uglybetty:x

I pray that time will fastforward to 1.5years later where I'll have nice pretty straight WOOHOO teeth(: sooon.

shopped around.I BOUGHT MY 09ohsoprettyDIARY((: weee.lovelove. and haix. I'm going BROKE. so many OCTbabies:/ andrewkoh's 21st this weekend.haix why does he stay so far. UT(yewtee) is like where ET stays can.:X

I am so proud of myself:
finished powerpoint slides for ITpresentation!applause pls!((:
satisfied my XLB craving for now
ate my chocfish from taka(:




do something with nothing [when you find time on your hands, put them together in prayer] because a little prayer a day for someone goes a long way.

Wait and, in waiting, listen for His leading;
Be strong, thy strength for every day is stored.
Go forth in faith, and let thine heart take courage;
There is no disappointment with the Lord.
-Amen

fivemoreweeks

things done for now.
done in research for ITpresentation(:
done for GEK assignment(:
done for lab report for this week(:

things left to do:(thisweek-next)
prepare for IT ppt and script:X
braces!
cm2101expt1 labreport
cm2111expt3 labreport
study for cm2111 test3 and many more quizzes.:/
studystudystudy. its week10.
5 more weeks. i can do this.(:

I know its only mid-oct.But my dec calendar is pretty packed with activities, which really scares me a bit.x_x I really need to take a break. I need a good deserved rest. well, rest, so that I can carry on. For now, I still can hold on. But I really hope I dont get burnt out. I really want to reduce and stop taking up any kind of commitment I can now. I am sorry for being selfish.But I am just scared that I wont be able to cope, worse still, burning out.:/ Because, in the end, its the heart that counts. Not how much we do, but really just serving, wholeheartedly. teach me. mould me. grant me a teachable heart. this is my prayer today.

OHOH.happy belated bday to mer(19thoct) and happybday yingwen(20thoct)
this insane.LOL my OCT calendar has far too many bdays:/ haha spread yourselves OUT can!
rawr.
tmr is yet another:/ long day.8am-8pm.help me survive pls.LOL

weee.

new layout and template!
new SHOUT OUT box.
thank you girl!!((: nicoletantzeying is such and IT-whizz.
lovelove<33.>

rawr.my blog is supposed to be my "escapade".
now i feel "violated".nic is going to ask random pple to TAG.>.<
bleh.

OHOH HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY to mervynlu the flipperboy!((:

went to birdpark today w my family((:
HAPPY 9th ANNIVERSARY kor!
lol my bro is super happy. he just came back from anniversary dinner and was gleaming! haha his gf bought him i-phone and made some 2009calendar which was prettypretty((: my kor is such a lucky guy!! may they have blessed years and days ahead of them! and hopefully wedding bells will ring soon.LOL

sigh i've got so much assignments flooding in. time to get back to studying!)):

anyways. there's so much happening now.
i need time. i need to decide.
i thought i have made a choice already.
but things change. pple change.
i dont know if i want this. anymore.

octinsaneoct

i need more time.:/
its week 10 already.
lab reports. assignments. presentation.
i need to get through this.

had an insanely packed week.
monday: tennis w heng and hoe, followed by ):toothextraction in the evening.
tuesday: lab and rest.
wednesday: dental appt, metal bands in my mouth. xiaolongbaobao indulgence(:
thursday: lunch at fongseng w hoe,jw,nic,heng(: maggiegorengdouble and teh-cino!(: cm2102test followed by tooth extraction in the evening and baking nic's bday brownie at night.
friday: surPRIZEd nic at ntu w chiam,hoe,jw and kx.((: and of course accomplice khalisa

sat:HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIESHENG!(: you're 20!OLDOLDOLD. have a fabulous year ahead!! LOL

my week ahead will also be pretty packed.:/
sunday: birdpark w family
tuesday: lab report due:/
wednesday: putting on braces ALREADY. and hopefully yet another xiaolongbaobao time!((:
friday: assignment due.:/
saturday: shopping w heng, andrewkoh's 21st.(: maybe baking overnight session w nic and chiam.
sunday: desmond's bday(:

this is insane. exams are in 5weeks. I have to work my ass off soon. I must must must stop going out. soon.

threshold.

this is too painfullll for me to bear:/
I dunno if I want this anymore): just extraction itself is making me regret my decision to put on braces. I cant stop tearing after the anasthetic went off. this is insane. I still have to extract two more adult teeth.:/ I am dead.

have one day mc today.but nevertheless I had to drag myself to school cos today's got lab.I almost died during lab today. during briefing, when the TA was briefing us on mass spec and nmr stuff I almost fainted.and sigh I had to sit down and listen, just because I had no strength to stand.:/

thank God for journey mercy. driving in such a ''want-to-die'' feeling was pretty insane. but anyhow I'm home, safe and sound!((:

thank God for friends that will always be there for me and with me((: thank you you you.((: lovelovelove.

I figured I have been sleeping too much. I need to start studying. I have so many assignment and projects due. I am so dead. Six more weeks to exams. I need to do this. No matter how tough its going to be. I will and can do this. Because He is in control, above all. jiayous pple!! we can do this.((:

p.s. I'm kinda bo-geh now. so I will no longer be as talkative already. and be more demure:X lol i am always demure OKAY!((: plus no more smiling :D anymore but (: hahaha sigh. things pple do, to do braces.

happybdayHOE!(:

happy 20th birthday tzehoe!!(:
nephewnephewnephew!!
one year older, one year wiser hopefully.:/

my teeth feels like they are going to drop anytime. they are so painfullll. and I cant even chew for nuts!)): semi-liquid diet. I was eating grapes for lunch and I spent like 30mins on ONE grape. *faints. I give up. I have to eat porridge.:/ eeww. I still insist porridge is for ''sick'' pple.:/ sigh I'm really not a fan of porridge.

went out for dinner at IMM today. I bought BABY FOOD so that I won't die for tmr's long day in school. because nus dont sell porridge i think, at least not for sci.:/ and tmr is my supposedly 8-8 day again. BUT adrian lee CANCELLED his lecture tmr!!((: wee. he is so love-able for once.heh

As the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
this is for you.
I pray for you this prayer today. That even if you feel like you're going to crumble and die, I'll always be there. I feel hurt seeing her going through all these trials and dealing w so many issues. I pray Lord, You'll help her handle them. To turn her mourning into dancing, to give her comfort, refuge and strength. To grant her peace that comes from You. To let her know that You'll always be there, providing her all she will ever need. I pray that she'll know that You are always in control, above all. I pray that You'll continue to watch over her, to provide her with Your perfect rest. I pray that You'll remove her anxieties and worries. I pray that You'll just be there with her and grant her sleep and remove sleepless nights. I commit a friend whom I love dearly into Your hands.thank You Jesus for always listening to my prayers.

blue thing

Jesus take me in Your hands
And make me all that You want me to be.

Jesus help me understand
Your purpose and what You can do through me
Fulfilling my destiny.

Thank You for helping me survive yesterday.
It was such a horror. Waking up at 6am and ending school at 8pm was already tough and trying. Lab report was due the next day, which so happens to be my free day. Once i reached home, it was time to start and finish my lab report. I did my lab report till my eyes were like >.< painfulll.And the results were pretty screwed.:/ But thank God its all over. And i completed it at around 2am.

Which equates to being awake for around 20hours. xzombifiedx.

Had dental appt at mount e. at 3pm today. Thank God zm and hoe went with me. I was super scared.:/ dentists are just scary.but thank God everything went fine. and i'm putting on braces within the month.:x

Now I have 8 blue rubberbands stuck in my mouth. ouch.:/ no hard food pls.
and we ate xiaolongbaobao at crystaljade today!! its so yummy!! craving((:

oh and thank you for the cookies((: though i cant really eat them now.nevertheless yay!! cookiescookiescookies!!weee((((:

happybdayoctbabies((:

happyhappy birthday to OCT babies(((:

tonicole tzehoe jiesheng raymond angelina kahyee desmond crystal mervyn yingwen yc and all.

seriously.why so many OCT babies $_$'' haha

oh wells. end of 4 tests.((: 1 more to go in 2 wks time.:/

z___z

a picture paints a thousand words so here i go--

i. trekking w lulu and yk at bkt timah hill((:

ii. yongkang's family:X

iii. celebration of jiesheng's bday at fish&co.

iv. at KLP <3

v-vii. ice skating

viii-x. celebration of nicole's bday at thai express.

three letter word.

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DNARNAXXX- codon
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i'm seriously brain dead.:/
cm2101 test was -.-
but thank God that i survived.
and though it was pretty tough, its still quite do-able.

tmr's gek1527. i'm going to die
though its mcq>.<>
sigh. genes genes genes and soc.:/

AHH wisdom tooth hurts like crap. but cannot make it i have too much wisdom:X

i dont know what to do anymore.
i dont know how anymore.
i pray for wisdom.

♥

i <33>
this post is esp for her.

wee. i thought i lost all the colours in my life.
the ability to choose the font size.
but thanks to dr MEL.
i gained it all back.♥

i would seriously die w/o mel.
i'm so uber blur.:/
i pray i will stop blurring arnd.
and MEL stop dreaming abt me:X
later ahem jealous. i die HAHA

highest

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdon's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity.

Hosanna in the Highest.

start of midterms:/

wish me luck. tmr is my 8-8 day as usual.:/ and i have 2 papers tmr. cm2111 and IT1004 *dies

jahn teller's my best friend now. haha and jahn teller's theorem- if ground electronic configuration of a nonlinear molecule is degenerate, then the molecule will distort so as to remove the degeneracy and achieve a lower energy.

i just realised this coming wed is a PH. really>.< because its my only free day. and streets are going to be crowded and all; i really dislike crowded places. oh wells. BUT there's no lab this week- equates no lab report((: WEE!!

wellos. sep is coming to an end. gosh i'm 20 for almost a month:/ cries* and octoctoct is coming. and there are just so many oct babies:x

my Lord is ever with me

Along life's busy way;

I trust in Him completely

For guidance day by day.

Through it all, He is always there.

hoe: cheerios UP!!(: tc nephew and get well soon. LOOK FORWARD to your 2weeks OFF okay!!((: and arnd 3more mths to all you guys' ORD!

MELt: stop the MELamine poisoning!!LOL

time to get back to books:X this is a really random de-stress post.sigh

night safari weee.((:

i miss going out.

with friends<33
nicole hoe fab des jasmine ber

lulu js and 2 friends(X and Y)

nicole and i were pretty excited about NS(nightsafari)

:/ havent been there for ages!!
but )): it was pretty dark and scary,

photos taken cannot be seen w/o flash

-.- why does everyone like to scare me? like seriously, i'm how brave can!!LOL

there were 11 of us, and 4 cars in total.O_O petrol xfreex

convoy convoy convoy.

the luxin's friends which i can never remember their names!

i'm so sorry:/ but i'm really bad at names.

i shall name them tucson(driver) and passenger.

boy, its so much easier x.x

thank you mr tucson for driving nicole and tzehoe home for me and fab:/

or i'll O_O die driving. jiesheng was pretty scared to die in my car. well him being his usual self.:x

i am seriously zombified now. and i feel the monday blues already. i do not want recess week to come to an end yet. one week just breezed through like that): been studying, catching up, going out. trying to get the most out of this week. because unending assignments are flooding in soon. i pray i will survive.

random: i have a sudden craving to eat ikea's sweddish meatballs!!>.<

i want to do so many things.
so little time.