dilemma.

There's just so many decisions to make.
Whether or not to take up an internship.
Whether to take this or that module.
Whether to do this and forsake that.

I have to stick with my current commitments till I have fulfilled them.
But I really need to prioritise.
So stop pushing me to accept your idea of living into my life.
Because what is important to you might not be, to me.

Alrights, enough of ranting.
I am just being so greedy nowadays that I just feel like eating EVERYTHING. Which is bad. But I know I am just two weeks away from cny where I can binge away((:

I just pray that You will guide me in choosing every decision that I make; because I want to live my life Your way, not mine.

packing.

In the midst of packing my room.
and its in the messiest state.:/
I seriously need to hire someone to come help me pack.
throw things away. things that do not matter anymore.

because there is just too much clutter.

Today I just went for my 2nd tightening.:x It was pretty painful and HURR experience. And I finally remembered to ask him about my xray, maybe that's why I've been angsty the whole day. The results ain't good, my wisdom tooth below is slanted and will not grow out properly. But because its too near the main nerve, I can't operate on it, unless it comes out and causes pain. I really do not want to undergo it again):

Besides that, I am one step closer to nice pretty looking straight teeth(:

I just pray that it will never come out.

I think this is such a random post because, thoughts just come and go. And I'm just typing them down. I need to get my ny resolutions done, soon.

Its just one week before order is once again instilled in my life. Holidays are just the messiest times of your life, where life becomes hectic as everyday is packed fully w activities. Yes, I am partially looking forward to the start of school, because its the time that I have the most time to rest and really have time for myself. I just pray that I will get the modules that I have planned for.(:

bedtime story.

bedtime story-

loves bugsy.

reminds me of you

I really love the raining gum-ball scene. How I wished it happened to me-((: whee.
It scares me as the days are passing so quickly.

We have reached the 29th of dec. Just two days to 2009. A blank new page, a brand new start.

A time to come out with a brand new new year resolution. To mean it, and do it. To have a brand new beginning, to forget things that I need to. To me, it is tough. I am afraid that I can't, I am afraid that I can't do this anymore. It has been so long, that you have became a habit in my life. And to remove it, I need more than simply time, but courage and wilpower-which is seriously lacking. I am sorry for always saying how busy I am, but the true reason is I don't know what to do anymore. I dont even know wha t I want anymore. Things left unsaid, I feel are better left that way.

That bright and sunny day, was seriously spoilt. I couldnt function after receiving that call. I didnt know what to do and my whole day was just wasted, not wanting to do anything. My brain was just all about you. Seriously, its time, to bid goodbye to this. I just pray.

It is time to move on.