work.

I suddenly realise that time is running out. Its already week eleven, lets simply say week thirteen is the last week before the end of this semester. Following it would be a week for study break and poof* to exams. This semester simply just flew by, at the wink of an eye. I am dead. There's so much to do, so little time. There's so much on my desk, but so much inertia. I need to work my ass offit is time.

meeting linwan to study tomorrow, hopefully it'll be a fruitful mugging session(:

I pray that time will stop, like now.
I pray that we will all have enough stamina to finish this.
Amen.

to You.

Here I am, forever in Your mighty Hand

Living in Your promise

Written on my heart

I am Yours, surrenderred wholly to You

You set me in Your family

Calling me Your own

Now I

I belong to You

All I need

Your Spirit, Your word, Your truth

Hear my cry

My deep desire to know You more

In Your name, I will lift my hands

To the King

This anthem of praise I'll bring

Heaven knows

I long to love You

With all I am

I belong to You.

Even as the going gets tough, the tough gets going. No matter how difficult life's going to be, we still have to carry on. Jesus never said it was going to be easy, He only said you'll never walk alone. Just like footprints, He will always be there, through it all. Taking up the cross will never be easy. Just like loving your friends, your neighbours, your enemies; we love because He first loved us. Just as trials that come your way are meant to mould you and make you grow in Him. Just as His thoughts and ways are higher than ours, it is the beauty of His ever-perfect plan. Everything is made perfect in His time. That even how tough this walk in Him seems to be, I pray that you'll continue to press on. This is my prayer today.

"I do not ask that He must prove
His word is true to me,
And that before I can believe
He first must let me see.
It is enough for me to know
It's true because He says it's so;
On His unchanging Word I'll stand
And trust till I can understand."
-E.M. Winter

[lab-report-ing]

I'm finally DONE with my [labreports] today. Had two experiments to do and had to hand in the subsequent reports on the SAME day:/ luckilly the two lab reports are pretty simple and short to do((: and thanks to uncle mike that brought his laptop for me, I was able to finish it so fast and so furious-ly.

I am really really tired. and my "neighbour" drove today, but I can't get my free ride today because me and my friends have a date with adrianlee later for lecture till 8pm): pooof* goes my free ride home. sigh I was really tempted to "pon" adrianlee's lecture at six. but no. Its my core and I must stop "pon"ing lectures.esp genes[guilty-ness]

and it was so amazing, adrianlee actually uploaded his notes before midnight yesterday. applause for him pls.:/ its the first time in the whole of this sem.

alrighty I shall hand in my labreport that is due at five o'clock now(:

weee.tmr's my free day again(((((: simply awesome.

encounter

brief summary of my weekend:

saturday: shopping with celeste with a million food breaks [tau-hway etc] followed by [check]mate party(:

sunday: went for service with my bro followed by having yummyyummy lunch with my bro at MOF:) free-treat yay! went to chiam's house to bake tiramisu was cam-whoring the whole time while doing the photoshoot for nic. adding on to my album of unglam photos. had dinner with des, fab and nic at tampines ikea. sigh I would love to have sweddish meatballs, but afraid that it'll be too hard to swallow, poached salmon in replacement(:.had a superbly fun time camwhoring on KPE(70km/h-slowest speed you can catch FAB on the expressway):x then we went to drive around on des' dad's van.[manualcar=puke]. oh yes tampines has alot of XQ(xiaoqiangs) like eew. des and I were like forced to play some horror game online with fab, and it was then I realised that three of us have a common trait- cowardness:X we were all covering our eyes and all. It was like OH-MY-TIAN-ness. and from the post earlier, I was stranded at des' house till like 1am:/

monday: was supposed to have campcomm meeting at 10am, but I woke up at 9:45am.total GG. I was like -.- dies. But managed to rush down to PS at 1030am. pheew. At least I wasnt like eugene-theblur, he actually thought the meeting was held in the evening CAN:/ win. After the meeting went for lunch at KFC, yay my favourite staple food-mashpotatoes. lovelove<33.

was blog-hopping and I reallyreally love reading my friends' blog(:

http://willywei.com/2008/10/22/the-government-wants-me-back/

this is super hilarious. take a look at the posters.:X

Thank God for allowing me to survive this. I finally finished the handwritten report and am preparing for tomorrow's lab because I have to hand it in like on the day itself:/

this is so random.but I was just listening to encounter_one's cd. The songs, the message, just simply awesome.

You laid aside your majesty

Gave up everything for me

Suffered at the hands of those You have created

You took all my guilt and shame when You died and rose again

Now today You reign in heaven and earth, exalted.

I really want to worship you my Lord

You have won my heart and I am yours

Forever and ever

I will love You

You are the only one who died for me

Gave your life to set me free

So I lift my voice to You in adoration.

dessy-mon's house

happy20th + 1day old DESSY-mon(((:

lol now I'm with des and fab in des' house:/ sigh I'm superduper tired BUT FAB dont want to go home yet!): sigh. iwanttogohome!!rawr.

went for a drive when fab drove des' dad's van!rawr. a manual car:/ the scariest ride ever. I felt giddy and wanted to puke.HAHA but okay lah the ride got better towards the end.((:
sigh did so many insane stuff. shall post photos up real soon!!

yays. anyhow I'm awaiting to go home soooon. FAB I want to go home please!O: yay free ride again((: wee.

today's such a long day again. baked in chiam's house-[tiramisu] supersupersuper yummmy((: haha THANKYOUYOU chiam and family for the hospitality and everything. despite being unwell and stuff you guys still played as a reallyreally good host(((: lovelovelove

alrighty I shall not hog the comp. sigh.
I feel- Iwannagohome-.-

decided.

HAPPY 21st AK!!(:
yewtee is reallyreallyreally far:/ thanks for softsoft yummyyummy food((: i love the tofu,fish and choc fondue(: i have just taken the MOST number of un-glammed shots in crys' camera today[with braces])):

I just realised that I have at least one friend's bday everyday from 24thOCT-31stOCT:x I am broken beyond redemption. sigh had shopping day out with HENG today. our shopping stamina has dropped): it must be school,stress and what nots.SIGH. bought a top and ate rocher tauhuay again((:

didnt manage to go for dessymon's surprise/gathering later at night. cos yewtee is so far, and today has been a long day. sorry, but I'm sure you had fun.LOL. stupid fab dont scold me okay! i'm your mudder! cannot no big no small LOL>.<

to des,ky: HAPPY20thBIRTHDAY((: welcome to the we're secretly 18+2 club!!haha.

i have decided to let go and let God.i have decided not to pursue this.i have decided to crumble and die.dying daily, for Jesus.
i have decided to forget you.i am just not good enough. never.
i dunno why i'm feeling this way. i feel i've just ran into a dead end.i need to get through this. i must, i need to.
i'm sorry. i cannot do this. i am a coward.i am not good enough. and i dunno how to trust you.
i'm sorry. i'm emo.)):
i am tired; masked.i need a break. soon. i want to run. away from this.

"free"ride(:

had lessons from 8-8 today, yet again. lol but yay my "neighbour" drove today and ended project meeting in the evening too!((: wee FREE RIDE home!! had porridge + tauhuay for dinner at oldairport road!! yummyyummyyummy!!

THANK YOU FOR THE "free" RIDE TODAY JEREMY TAN!((:
had I knew that you live so uber close to me when we were working in SH, I bet you'll always get "free" rides from me too HAHA!
stop lying to me about the $17.30 taxi fare! LOL and I"M NOT the LAZY-est girl alive!:x
my braces pal "neighbour" thank you again!LOL first time sitting in a van:/ super HIGH and pretty scary.:x

rawr. I am going to drown in assignments
(i) hand written labreport (cm2111)
(ii) full labreport (cm2101)
(iii) IT presentation
(iv) 2101 test:/ which is dunno when HAIX when will adrian lee stop "smoking" us in lectures.

I have I have I have to complete at least (i) today:/ so lets pray I can do this. can't wait for tmr! our super long BOOKED date to shopshopshop!((: HENG I miss shopping with you! and stop zzzing in GENES lect; you make me wanna zz too:/

haix andrewkoh's bday is tmr:/ theme: [check]mate. I dont have clothes for the theme:x and why do you have to stay so far?! UT[yewtee] is uber far and ulu>.<

dessymon's bday surprize is tmr:/ and I cant go. haix. hopefully I can join you guys later at night. OR nvm I'll see nic and chiam during baking session on sunday((: wee. I cant wait!! but speaking of that, I dont have the recipe and haven't bought the ingredients yet:x

alrighty. i shall go and embark on my arduous labreporting soon):
wish me luck

i think i'm giving up.
i dunno how to talk to you anymore.
this is not working.
this is not how i want it to be.
glibberish.glibberish.glibberish.

♥braces

bracesbracesbraces:/

thank you chiam for coming w me to PUT on these braces. unlike ms PSK(pangsehkiah).HAHA LOL:X i was whining after eating OH-SOMARVELLOUS XLB and ramen at imperial treasures all the way to the dental place. ahh. i was scared but excited. BUT reallyreally quite scared, to the point I told chiam, I'm going to lock myself in the toilet and NOT go for dental. and chiam was like, then I'll break open the toilet door and PULL you in for dental.-.- LOL ♥chiam. i would have died if I went alone. haix like what ms PSK say-lijunisscaredycat

STATUS UPDATE: I HAVE ORANGE BRACES.:/ which is increasingly getting painfullll by the minute. and I look like uglybetty:x

I pray that time will fastforward to 1.5years later where I'll have nice pretty straight WOOHOO teeth(: sooon.

shopped around.I BOUGHT MY 09ohsoprettyDIARY((: weee.lovelove. and haix. I'm going BROKE. so many OCTbabies:/ andrewkoh's 21st this weekend.haix why does he stay so far. UT(yewtee) is like where ET stays can.:X

I am so proud of myself:
finished powerpoint slides for ITpresentation!applause pls!((:
satisfied my XLB craving for now
ate my chocfish from taka(:




do something with nothing [when you find time on your hands, put them together in prayer] because a little prayer a day for someone goes a long way.

Wait and, in waiting, listen for His leading;
Be strong, thy strength for every day is stored.
Go forth in faith, and let thine heart take courage;
There is no disappointment with the Lord.
-Amen

fivemoreweeks

things done for now.
done in research for ITpresentation(:
done for GEK assignment(:
done for lab report for this week(:

things left to do:(thisweek-next)
prepare for IT ppt and script:X
braces!
cm2101expt1 labreport
cm2111expt3 labreport
study for cm2111 test3 and many more quizzes.:/
studystudystudy. its week10.
5 more weeks. i can do this.(:

I know its only mid-oct.But my dec calendar is pretty packed with activities, which really scares me a bit.x_x I really need to take a break. I need a good deserved rest. well, rest, so that I can carry on. For now, I still can hold on. But I really hope I dont get burnt out. I really want to reduce and stop taking up any kind of commitment I can now. I am sorry for being selfish.But I am just scared that I wont be able to cope, worse still, burning out.:/ Because, in the end, its the heart that counts. Not how much we do, but really just serving, wholeheartedly. teach me. mould me. grant me a teachable heart. this is my prayer today.

OHOH.happy belated bday to mer(19thoct) and happybday yingwen(20thoct)
this insane.LOL my OCT calendar has far too many bdays:/ haha spread yourselves OUT can!
rawr.
tmr is yet another:/ long day.8am-8pm.help me survive pls.LOL

weee.

new layout and template!
new SHOUT OUT box.
thank you girl!!((: nicoletantzeying is such and IT-whizz.
lovelove<33.>

rawr.my blog is supposed to be my "escapade".
now i feel "violated".nic is going to ask random pple to TAG.>.<
bleh.

OHOH HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY to mervynlu the flipperboy!((:

went to birdpark today w my family((:
HAPPY 9th ANNIVERSARY kor!
lol my bro is super happy. he just came back from anniversary dinner and was gleaming! haha his gf bought him i-phone and made some 2009calendar which was prettypretty((: my kor is such a lucky guy!! may they have blessed years and days ahead of them! and hopefully wedding bells will ring soon.LOL

sigh i've got so much assignments flooding in. time to get back to studying!)):

anyways. there's so much happening now.
i need time. i need to decide.
i thought i have made a choice already.
but things change. pple change.
i dont know if i want this. anymore.

octinsaneoct

i need more time.:/
its week 10 already.
lab reports. assignments. presentation.
i need to get through this.

had an insanely packed week.
monday: tennis w heng and hoe, followed by ):toothextraction in the evening.
tuesday: lab and rest.
wednesday: dental appt, metal bands in my mouth. xiaolongbaobao indulgence(:
thursday: lunch at fongseng w hoe,jw,nic,heng(: maggiegorengdouble and teh-cino!(: cm2102test followed by tooth extraction in the evening and baking nic's bday brownie at night.
friday: surPRIZEd nic at ntu w chiam,hoe,jw and kx.((: and of course accomplice khalisa

sat:HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIESHENG!(: you're 20!OLDOLDOLD. have a fabulous year ahead!! LOL

my week ahead will also be pretty packed.:/
sunday: birdpark w family
tuesday: lab report due:/
wednesday: putting on braces ALREADY. and hopefully yet another xiaolongbaobao time!((:
friday: assignment due.:/
saturday: shopping w heng, andrewkoh's 21st.(: maybe baking overnight session w nic and chiam.
sunday: desmond's bday(:

this is insane. exams are in 5weeks. I have to work my ass off soon. I must must must stop going out. soon.

threshold.

this is too painfullll for me to bear:/
I dunno if I want this anymore): just extraction itself is making me regret my decision to put on braces. I cant stop tearing after the anasthetic went off. this is insane. I still have to extract two more adult teeth.:/ I am dead.

have one day mc today.but nevertheless I had to drag myself to school cos today's got lab.I almost died during lab today. during briefing, when the TA was briefing us on mass spec and nmr stuff I almost fainted.and sigh I had to sit down and listen, just because I had no strength to stand.:/

thank God for journey mercy. driving in such a ''want-to-die'' feeling was pretty insane. but anyhow I'm home, safe and sound!((:

thank God for friends that will always be there for me and with me((: thank you you you.((: lovelovelove.

I figured I have been sleeping too much. I need to start studying. I have so many assignment and projects due. I am so dead. Six more weeks to exams. I need to do this. No matter how tough its going to be. I will and can do this. Because He is in control, above all. jiayous pple!! we can do this.((:

p.s. I'm kinda bo-geh now. so I will no longer be as talkative already. and be more demure:X lol i am always demure OKAY!((: plus no more smiling :D anymore but (: hahaha sigh. things pple do, to do braces.

happybdayHOE!(:

happy 20th birthday tzehoe!!(:
nephewnephewnephew!!
one year older, one year wiser hopefully.:/

my teeth feels like they are going to drop anytime. they are so painfullll. and I cant even chew for nuts!)): semi-liquid diet. I was eating grapes for lunch and I spent like 30mins on ONE grape. *faints. I give up. I have to eat porridge.:/ eeww. I still insist porridge is for ''sick'' pple.:/ sigh I'm really not a fan of porridge.

went out for dinner at IMM today. I bought BABY FOOD so that I won't die for tmr's long day in school. because nus dont sell porridge i think, at least not for sci.:/ and tmr is my supposedly 8-8 day again. BUT adrian lee CANCELLED his lecture tmr!!((: wee. he is so love-able for once.heh

As the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
this is for you.
I pray for you this prayer today. That even if you feel like you're going to crumble and die, I'll always be there. I feel hurt seeing her going through all these trials and dealing w so many issues. I pray Lord, You'll help her handle them. To turn her mourning into dancing, to give her comfort, refuge and strength. To grant her peace that comes from You. To let her know that You'll always be there, providing her all she will ever need. I pray that she'll know that You are always in control, above all. I pray that You'll continue to watch over her, to provide her with Your perfect rest. I pray that You'll remove her anxieties and worries. I pray that You'll just be there with her and grant her sleep and remove sleepless nights. I commit a friend whom I love dearly into Your hands.thank You Jesus for always listening to my prayers.

blue thing

Jesus take me in Your hands
And make me all that You want me to be.

Jesus help me understand
Your purpose and what You can do through me
Fulfilling my destiny.

Thank You for helping me survive yesterday.
It was such a horror. Waking up at 6am and ending school at 8pm was already tough and trying. Lab report was due the next day, which so happens to be my free day. Once i reached home, it was time to start and finish my lab report. I did my lab report till my eyes were like >.< painfulll.And the results were pretty screwed.:/ But thank God its all over. And i completed it at around 2am.

Which equates to being awake for around 20hours. xzombifiedx.

Had dental appt at mount e. at 3pm today. Thank God zm and hoe went with me. I was super scared.:/ dentists are just scary.but thank God everything went fine. and i'm putting on braces within the month.:x

Now I have 8 blue rubberbands stuck in my mouth. ouch.:/ no hard food pls.
and we ate xiaolongbaobao at crystaljade today!! its so yummy!! craving((:

oh and thank you for the cookies((: though i cant really eat them now.nevertheless yay!! cookiescookiescookies!!weee((((:

happybdayoctbabies((:

happyhappy birthday to OCT babies(((:

tonicole tzehoe jiesheng raymond angelina kahyee desmond crystal mervyn yingwen yc and all.

seriously.why so many OCT babies $_$'' haha

oh wells. end of 4 tests.((: 1 more to go in 2 wks time.:/

z___z

a picture paints a thousand words so here i go--

i. trekking w lulu and yk at bkt timah hill((:

ii. yongkang's family:X

iii. celebration of jiesheng's bday at fish&co.

iv. at KLP <3

v-vii. ice skating

viii-x. celebration of nicole's bday at thai express.

three letter word.

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DNARNAXXX- codon
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i'm seriously brain dead.:/
cm2101 test was -.-
but thank God that i survived.
and though it was pretty tough, its still quite do-able.

tmr's gek1527. i'm going to die
though its mcq>.<>
sigh. genes genes genes and soc.:/

AHH wisdom tooth hurts like crap. but cannot make it i have too much wisdom:X

i dont know what to do anymore.
i dont know how anymore.
i pray for wisdom.

♥

i <33>
this post is esp for her.

wee. i thought i lost all the colours in my life.
the ability to choose the font size.
but thanks to dr MEL.
i gained it all back.♥

i would seriously die w/o mel.
i'm so uber blur.:/
i pray i will stop blurring arnd.
and MEL stop dreaming abt me:X
later ahem jealous. i die HAHA

highest

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdon's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity.

Hosanna in the Highest.