shit happens

sometimes.

RAR. Had seven hours of lab today- org lab is srsly insane. Bumped into Ada and she wished me luck, because its the second expt and apparently everyone said it was going to end at 6pm, meaning 8hours of lab and NO BREAK. Which srsly stressed me up quite abit.

1000- Reached lab and as usual had to wear PPE before taking attendance and crossing the line. HAIH it was so hot, why didnt it rain today. crazy weather.
1030- Washing of equipments and preparing the reaction work-up.
1100- Start reaction running, with my CARCINOGENIC pdt from expt 1 and some other stuff and catalyst which melted at an amazing rate on the paper that I dont even know if it ended up w the other reagents in the RBF. HAIH.
1115- Remove from icebath and did my first TLC(tender loving care! yeah right) plate for the reaction mixture. HURR no pdts at all.
1145- Did second TLC and got faint pdts appearing.
1230- DIY column chromatography- OMG its super coool. Its like you add cotton wool first into the column, then add hexane and srsly we add hexane like its FREE. HURR apparently chiakeat says its carcinogenic:x HURR we're dead.): cos it has low BP, means it evaporates like free tooo.HURR. OKAY back to the column, then we add SAND, silicagel(super cool stuff) then pack it by using the airpump(: Then another layer of sand and add more hexane. The silicagel is superrr coool lah, it hardens super fast if not taken care of. HURR
1245- This is too good to be true, everything went well, my column was made perfectly to function for the purification process later. S
1345- Did third TLC, pdts appeared but the starting materials(sm) were still present. HURR except for chiakeat which put so much catalyst had his rxn into completion.
1350- Went for LUNCH, OMG WE ACTUALLY HAD TIME FOR LUNCH BREAK LAHH.(((((:
1415- Everything still sounds too good to be true.
1425- Did fourth TLC and pdts appeared is significantly darker than sm's. SO YAY, time for separatory process(extraction).
SHIT HAPPENED- I was such a dumbass, I forgot to close the separtory funnel, and poured my CARCINOGENIC rxn mixture into the funnel which all flowed out.))): And cos I was so shagged from the above procedure, I only realised it when I had little rxn mixture left in my RBF lahh.
I AM SRSLY STUPID LAHH.))))): Then I told the TA, then he was O.O and I was -.- do I have to redo tmr since its alr 1425!!))): HENG HE SAVED MY DAY, he was EH alter the amt of stuff to put in and redo your rxn mixture now then you'll finish by five plus-.-

Yup shit happens. I was srsly super sian about it, the feeling is srsly NOT FRESH lahh.): and the stuff spilt all onto the hotplate thing, HURR and me inhaling all the fumes, I srsly think org lab has robbed me a few years of my life): HAIH. But srsly lab-pro me isn't up to standard this sem): I dunno whyyy. This srsly sucks laah and my fingers were smelly till like just w the chemicals and stuff HAIH.And everything cant be washed into the sink, all had to be thrown into non-chlorinated waste bin then washed w acetone HAIH. smelllllly.):

BUT HEY I re-did the whole steps as written above w TLC(srsly TENDER LOVING CARE) and yup the reaction was completed in 45 mins lahhh(: okay thanks to the TA and his (: concentration and amounts to add, making the eqb entering completion in a faster rate(: WOOHOO. It was then I sped up and the lab-pro-ness sort of came back at the end of the lab. I managed to catch up with the rest lahh. So in the end chiakeat and I still shared the eluant and made the concoction together for our column(: WOOHOO. And we all ended at the same time lahh.(((: We actually ended at four plus, including LUNCH break can. HURR, though in actual fact I only started my lab at 1425. HAIH.

And the day still didnt end just yet, only to complete w a six to nine lecture. HAIH.

Oh well, to quote uncle mike: dont worry, shit happens.(:
But it only boils down to how we deal with the shit.
And thank God, that everything still went well, in the end.

OH lulu: yesyesyes I am going taiwannnnn(:(:(:

unproductive.

Rar stayed home today. And I realised there's just too much stuff that's left undone):

I woke up and started watching tv, cos OSCARS was shown on ch5. Cheerios to slumdog millionaire and benjamin buttons for winning so many awards. And yes, I am pretty (((: that wall-e WON best animations COS I really loved it laa. Hurr though there wasn't much speech involved, but hey ~you say it best, when you say nothing at all.HAHA.

OH and yes I couldn't withstand the fact that I stopped at the last disc of the new HK drama my mom tempted me to watch on sunday. So I completed the HK drama just watching it myself today. The HK drama- Click入黃金屋 was srsly good laa the ending and all(: I just love their dialogues, so fluent, funny and woohoo.

Some shots of the drama.(((:

Alrights, I should start studying soon): HAIH there's so much to do, so little time. GO ME!

And yupp I just pray for the pple arnd me(: I just pray that You will continue to guard their hearts and mind. To provide them Your peace and joy(: And to continue to guide them in everything they do. Amen.(:

dilemma.

There's just so many decisions to make.
Whether or not to take up an internship.
Whether to take this or that module.
Whether to do this and forsake that.

I have to stick with my current commitments till I have fulfilled them.
But I really need to prioritise.
So stop pushing me to accept your idea of living into my life.
Because what is important to you might not be, to me.

Alrights, enough of ranting.
I am just being so greedy nowadays that I just feel like eating EVERYTHING. Which is bad. But I know I am just two weeks away from cny where I can binge away((:

I just pray that You will guide me in choosing every decision that I make; because I want to live my life Your way, not mine.

here we go.

Here we go again, school is about to kick in in 4days time. I can't wait for school to start because it will be back to reality, where stayovers do not happen in a weekly manner; bumming around aimlessly will cease; and say hello to killing trees. But I feel that I have not nuah-ed enough this holiday. Just because december has been a blast. But hey, there's always an end to everything.

I just pray that I will get my modules at a not so costly price, because its only that start of round 2A and there are so many bidders as compared to the vacancy for both my electives:/ Yes, I am rich in a sense because I have so many more points than my peers, but, I still want to have them at a relatively affordable bid point so that I can have more interesting modules next year. rar.

I have been spending these days w my awesome pals, shopping for cny and buying fabulous finds!(:

Had bbq1101 at tng's place ytd. And liwei came up with a warped theory that people that went overseas KNOW how to cook, whereas people that have stayed in S'pore all their lives simply dont. HENG agrees, rar.:x Oh wells, maybe.

OH! happyhappy21st chiam!(: may you have a fabulous year ahead!

and yes, I shall embark on counting how many 21parties I actually attend.:x

nic: my recess week is 21feb-1mar((: FABULOUS. we are so going JB then again HAHA.

packing.

In the midst of packing my room.
and its in the messiest state.:/
I seriously need to hire someone to come help me pack.
throw things away. things that do not matter anymore.

because there is just too much clutter.

Today I just went for my 2nd tightening.:x It was pretty painful and HURR experience. And I finally remembered to ask him about my xray, maybe that's why I've been angsty the whole day. The results ain't good, my wisdom tooth below is slanted and will not grow out properly. But because its too near the main nerve, I can't operate on it, unless it comes out and causes pain. I really do not want to undergo it again):

Besides that, I am one step closer to nice pretty looking straight teeth(:

I just pray that it will never come out.

I think this is such a random post because, thoughts just come and go. And I'm just typing them down. I need to get my ny resolutions done, soon.

Its just one week before order is once again instilled in my life. Holidays are just the messiest times of your life, where life becomes hectic as everyday is packed fully w activities. Yes, I am partially looking forward to the start of school, because its the time that I have the most time to rest and really have time for myself. I just pray that I will get the modules that I have planned for.(:

bedtime story.

bedtime story-

loves bugsy.

reminds me of you

I really love the raining gum-ball scene. How I wished it happened to me-((: whee.
It scares me as the days are passing so quickly.

We have reached the 29th of dec. Just two days to 2009. A blank new page, a brand new start.

A time to come out with a brand new new year resolution. To mean it, and do it. To have a brand new beginning, to forget things that I need to. To me, it is tough. I am afraid that I can't, I am afraid that I can't do this anymore. It has been so long, that you have became a habit in my life. And to remove it, I need more than simply time, but courage and wilpower-which is seriously lacking. I am sorry for always saying how busy I am, but the true reason is I don't know what to do anymore. I dont even know wha t I want anymore. Things left unsaid, I feel are better left that way.

That bright and sunny day, was seriously spoilt. I couldnt function after receiving that call. I didnt know what to do and my whole day was just wasted, not wanting to do anything. My brain was just all about you. Seriously, its time, to bid goodbye to this. I just pray.

It is time to move on.

vit z deficiency

I am glad to say, I have survived 17days of december and still counting. I am halfway there, I really need to do this, and I want to do all these well. But I know that everything that is done, is definitely beyond my own capability. Without You, I am worthless, and of nothing. Because You allowed all these to be done, through me, by Your strength that You have given me.

12dec- 16 dec: faith (in)deed. Thank God for allowing this camp to run through smoothly, thank God for allowing us to talk to pple that we do not usually talk to, to step out of our comfort zone, to serve and for everything that we've gained through this camp, faith (in)deed. Thank You for allowing all the food sources to delivered on time, that my nightmare remained unrealised. Thank You for allowing me the strength to continue serving You throughout the camp and allowing my body to not succumb to being sick.(: Thank God for every little thing that You have made possible, and being with us through the camp! I must say I have learnt much and gained much from this camp. Through the workshops, burn out was really apt and indeed it taught me that sufficient rest is important to carry on walking this walk well. The gender workshop was also pretty good, it shows us that even as we face much challenges in everyday life, we need to respond in a manner to glorify God and to pray and seek Him first; something that sometimes we do last, as we often try to solve it by our means first. I just want to say that through this camp has been a splendid chance to work with fabulous people, as well as to get to know my comm members a little better.

Cheerios to daniel, for being a strict but yet fabulous camp commandant; to andre, for being an entertaining and encouraging deputy camp commandant; to jiehui, for being a responsible secretary that sends out minutes after every meeting; to esther, my OH-SO-FANTASTIC treasurer and deputy welfare ic that collects food with me((: helping me out and yes, the only other girl in the comm, thank God for placing you in my life, and thank God for this camp that I could know you better again! to sunny, for being an atas logistic personel, guarding the keys and stuff; to andrew, thank you for being such an ATAS cordial man even though your hygiene level is around grade C:/ but nevertheless the cordial you made were seriously nice! and thanks for all the help rendered during the camp and seriously you're really nice to make fun off, because you never get angry, lol; to sherman, the games really rock and thank you for being such a fabulous angel because I seriously thought if you were my angel, my cup would probably end up in the bin.:x Anyhow, thank you guys for making this camp so fabulous and working alongside each other has been an awesome experience. Even though we started planning about a year ago, but all these just felt so recent. And I really will miss the times spent, from talking nonsense to serious plannings. Thank God for placing you guys in my life.(:

Yes and as what I said to some of them, I have reached a point of no return. My brain is malfunctioning to the state that unless I write down a task list, I'll most probably forget what happened or what to do. A state of mind that I seriously need sleep. Why can't they just manufacture vit z in pills. Oh wells.

hectic

Yes, exams are over. But let me tell you, post-exam activities are far more tiring(physically) compared to exams-days. Oh wells, however I rather be kept in this busyness than having exams anytime.(: Alrights, now my whole room is filled with post-its, my best friend because I'm how forgetful. And because this december is insanely hectic, I better post them up on my board to remind myself. I am really scared that I won't do a good job out of my delegated tasks. I just hope that everything will be fine. I am afraid that I'll just screw up. But I know everything I do, all that I am, all that I have, I just have to submit them to You. Because ultimately, everything bit of me, all that I can do, is through Him.

Not by my might, but Yours.
Not by my strength, but Yours.
Not by my will, but Yours.

Alrights, shall give a brief recap of what I've been doing.
5dec- went out w s11 pple((: ate at nihon mura(lunch) and cafecartel(dinner), unfortunately I can't eat a thing except chawanmushi because of braces tightening. played CRAZY pool, seriously insane, each one of us had a ball number, guys have two or three each. And when your number gets put into the hole, for guys its 20push-ups each, and for girls its running around the arcade once. Its seriously a get-fit pool game.Hurr, where all the guys did over 200push-ups each and kith owing more than 120push ups.:x After dinner, we went to watch Bolt. It was pretty awesome I must say.((: Bolt is super dog afterall.

6dec- had crosslink comm meeting in the morning. ironed out CCIS event and carolling event stuff, which was good. But we really got to plan for next years events soon.:x put on your thinking cap! recce-ed food sources and am finally done! got my next sem's core modules notes from shaun, oh man they are thick thick thick. I pray I'll survive them.-.- After everything, went for kffc event at east coast and hmm, had bbq, once again lijun stares at the food.):

7dec- had 5dbc comm meeting, it was pretty long but at least many stuff was done and UP! I just pray for all the events that are coming up this dec- namely youth camp, 5dbc, CCIS, carolling.((:

alrights time to go have dinner with fab,ivin, samuel. And followed by having mahjong/ stayover at my place later w ph,lw,nic and hs.((: lovelovelove.

welcome to hectic insane december

24hr.

In exactly 24 hours time, it will be the start of my happy holidays. I seriously can't wait for this period of time to quickly zoom by. So, I shall try by blinking more frequently. Because people say time flies at the blink of an eye. haha. okay, I have less that 24hrs to mug. I'm more or less done with this module, but I seriously lack practice. And doing the past year papers are the least I can do for now. Thank goodness for my hardworking chem friends that always checks answers with me((:, going through questions that I have problems with.

Just a little bit longer.

I think its really weird. In the midst of exams, I feel more relaxed because people won't come and ask you to do stuff and like you'll just stay at home and nuah in the midst of mugging. But after exams, you have a whole line-up of programs. What an irony. lol but yes, I rather exams are over and done with soon.

sneak preview of my post-exams schedule:

2dec-going out shopping and all w linwan!(:

3dec-going DIMSUM buffet w heng,nic,linwan

4dec-s11(nuspple) kboxing/gathering AND braces tightening:/

5dec-ex-lvl6s outing!!

6dec-recce w esther for 5dbc and youth camp food, kffc event((:

I can't wait.